I Have to Buy Some CLEAR Tape!
Well I did it, I broke my previous record, and am actually on my way toward 36 hours without a cigarette, but it would appear that one of the powers that be in the universe is trying to test my will. It seems that last night, I fell asleep with my glasses on. Nothing unusual really. However, this morning at 7 in the AM, I woke up, gripped with the horror that they were broken. The right arm of my glasses was completely off the frame. Thankfully, it's something that can be fixed easily. BUT, that doesn't make things better at the moment. Since all of my vacation, personal, and holiday hours for work are tied up with going back to our hometown (about 3 hours away) for baby showers, and just having time off when the baby is born, I have to wait til Thursday, my next day off to get them fixed. So I'm at work today (and will be again tomorrow) with the right arm of my glasses taped on with Masking tape. And I think anyone who wears glasses will agree, THAT IS ONE OF THE MOST UNCOMFORTABLE AND UNNERVING THINGS IN THE WORLD!!! They don't fit right, they slide around on your head, and well it just looks stupid!!! This is one of the things I hate most in life, and it was bad enough the times it happened when I was smoking. Today, it's just pushing me right to the edge. Thankfully, Valerie (my fiance), is a wiz with some tape and has done her best to make the situation as bearable as possible. But still, I don't see any reason for a test like this already! It was bad enough yesterday when I spent 2 hours wrapped up in US to Canada export compliance junk! Now this today. There's a chance that I will break some type of office equipment before this day ends. A GOOD CHANCE!!
Although I would like to add that I suppose this is a good thing. I mean if I can't make it through something as easy as the arm falling off my glasses (which was MY OWN FAULT) then how am I going to make it through REALLY difficult things one day. Things like Alexander breaking them while I sleep one day! (Alexander Scott is what we're naming our son btw) So anyway, in many regards I welcome this little test of my willpower, but I hate it at the same time because I KNOW my willpower (or at least this patch) is good, and I won't smoke because of this. So instead I just have to sit here, frustrated, aggravated, and uncomfortable! But I suppose I'd be sitting here that way regardless. There are in fact some things, that even cigarettes cannot fix. 